Holding On

I actually wrote this poem today... unlike all the previous posts. When I read it for some reason I hear the start of a Country Song.. lol. Some may be able to relate to this one dealing with the battle of holding on or letting go of a relationship that is either dying or dead. I should say R.I.P relationship.. but I'm still Holding On:

Crazy I am to hold on to this pain
Repeatedly in my mind, I'm calling your name
Wishing that telepathically you'll hear
Hoping my beckon will bring you near.
No longer do I ever cross your mind
Like crumbs on a trail, you left me behind.

Crazy I am to hold on in vain
Thinking one day you'll return is insane!
Why drop the crumbs creating a track,
With no intentions of coming back?
So now I'm left to follow this path you've lain
But I'm labeled crazy to hold on for Your gain.

Crazy I am to let go of this flame
Reminiscing the nights I'd bawl out your name
So loud that the whole world would hear
Crisp and clear as though they were standing near
Whatever their thoughts, I didn't mind
I was on cloud nine, except when you slapped my behind.

Crazy I am to let go, I'll remain
To lose you without a fight is insane!
You are my other half and keep me on track
My mind goes on tangents but you pull me back.
So now I'm swimming in a pool of pain
But I'm crazy to let go, or else I won't gain.

Crazy you are to leave like this
You think without me your life would be bliss.
In which fantasy land do you live?!
Anywhere you go you must learn to forgive.
Instead you're running and screaming "Catch me if you can"
Like that bitter, sweet little Gingerbread Man.

Crazy you are to leave like this
I guess it's true, Ignorance IS bliss
You're searching for where Sleeping Beauty may live
But your eyes are closed cause you can't forgive.
If you open your eyes, you'll see that you can
Find her and reunite Sleeping Beauty with her man.

* Poem by Lex *